would you have loved me ?

if i hadn't spent days in the sun
with my mouth open, drinking heat-

would you have loved me ?

if i hadn't spent nights under the moon
with my heart open, bathing love-

would you have loved me ?

if i had sewn my mouth shut
in jagged lines
with black thread

if i had sewn my vagina shut
in jagged lines
with black thread

would you have loved me ?

if i had sewn my ears
my eyes and my brain
and my heart
in jagged lines
with that same black thread

would you have loved me ?

if i had wrapped myself
in black fabrics made of black threads

would you have loved me ?

it is no matter my love

i need the sun
crave the moon
and cannot sew

and need myself
more than you